Your Calling Doesn't Live in Your Head
It lives here...and when you bring that on board everything changes.
I was on a group call watching another woman get coached.
I could tell that she was really passionate about her work, but I could also tell that she was too in her head overthinking every step.
About an hour later, I found myself feeling heavy and I asked myself, what about this is tugging at my heart?
It’s when a woman can feel that she has something inside of her; a mission, a calling, a soul contract to deliver some kind of medicine into the world and she just keeps… not moving.
I know this pattern intimately. I can see exactly how it plays out.
She keeps starting and stopping.
She buys the domain name. She changes her Instagram bio. She tells herself, “This weekend I’m going to build the website.”
And then Saturday comes.
First she has to clean. Then groceries. Then she’s tired. Then it’s 7pm and dinner needs to happen.
Sunday becomes prep-for-the-week mode. And before she knows it, it’s Monday again.
And Sunday night? There’s that disappointment.
That quiet guilt. That, “Why didn’t I just do it?” That comparison to everyone else who seems to be moving.
And she promises herself next week will be different.
But what actually hurts isn’t that the website isn’t done.
It’s the ache.
That dull ache in her chest. That sense that something in her is alive… but not being used.
It’s like there’s a part of her that’s online and vibrating, and another part that’s just… dim, heavy offline.
I remember what that felt like.
My shoulders were always tight. There was this silent hum of despair in the background. Even on good days.
It was like I could sense that a part of me wasn’t fully alive. Like something was disconnected. And nothing could quite fill it.
Eating doesn’t fill it. Wine doesn’t fill it. Scrolling doesn’t fill it. Even being productive at your day job doesn’t fill it.
The reason you “can’t just do it” isn’t because you’re not motivated.
It’s because you’re trying to move from your head.
And your calling doesn’t live in your head.
When you try to force it from your head, it’s like a helium balloon, light, floaty, untethered.
But when you anchor your calling in your body, in your soul, there’s weight there.
And that weight is what allows you to stay.
To stay when it’s uncomfortable. To stay when you feel exposed. To stay when you’re tired. To stay when doubt creeps in.
Without that anchor, you start and stop.
With it, you move differently. You don’t disappear on yourself.
If you keep living in this cycle for another two years, the real cost isn’t the business not being built.
It’s self-trust.
It’s looking back and thinking, “Was that calling even real?”
It is real.
Your nervous system just doesn’t feel safe enough yet.
And that’s the work.
Not hustle culture motivation. Not pushing. Not forcing yourself to grind on weekends.
Rebuilding safety around self-expression so your body can actually support your calling instead of fighting against it.
If you’re tired of the start–stop cycle… If you’re tired of the silent hum of disappointment… If you’re ready to stop breaking promises to yourself every Sunday night…
I’d love to talk.
Book a connection call and let’s see if Embodied Priestess is the container that helps you finally move with your whole self behind you.
Much love,
Essence.
