What are you running from, beautiful?

There’s still a chance none of this turns out how I imagine and I fall flat on my face, but I’m done letting fear decide for me.

Hey friend,

We’re here. The Self-Healing School is finally alive and real.

Having something like this has been a dream of mine for so long, but if I’m honest, I kept running from it.
I kept telling myself I needed to learn more, or that I wasn’t ready yet.

But what I realized over my summer of healing is that it wasn’t really about not being ready.
It was my rejection wound trying to protect me.

There’s a special kind of vulnerability that comes with starting something new, especially something close to your heart.
My mind would whisper, What if no one joins? What if it fails? What if I embarrass myself?

And underneath all that was fear.
Not fear of failing but fear of being rejected and feeling unwanted.

I thought I had already healed that wound years ago. I’d done so much work around abandonment and feeling unwanted. It helped me open my heart and attract a loving relationship.
But this summer showed me my rejection wound was still alive, hiding under the surface, sitting right there in my root.

Y’all, it was so freaking painful to look at it, but I stayed with it.
And I began to see that every time I doubted myself, every time I let fear win and didn’t start this school, I was rejecting myself.
I was rejecting my soul’s calling.

Once I saw that, I couldn’t unsee it, I and I went to work to transmute that energy. All the tears, kundalini yoga, and chakra work paid off because here we are.

Here’s what I’ve learned:
We think fear is keeping us safe, but sometimes it’s standing in the way of the very thing our soul has been asking for.

If we want to dissolve fear, we can’t keep running from it we have to walk straight toward it and dive into it.
That’s how we take our power back.

There’s still a chance none of this turns out how I imagine and I fall flat on my face, but I’m done letting fear decide for me.
My version of winning now is just showing up and doing what my soul wants, even when fear’s still knocking at the door.

And if you’ve ever struggled with rejection too, here’s what I want you to remember:

Healing that wound starts with you.
It’s not about other people wanting you and staying.
It’s about you staying with yourself.

So, no more rejecting your dreams, your needs, or your desires.

Here’s your reflection for the week:

~ What are you afraid of right now?
~ What goal, dream, or calling keeps whispering to you, but fear keeps talking you out of it?
~ What do you think might happen if you finally showed up for yourself, healed, and loved yourself all the way through it?

Your answer doesn’t have to be big.
It could be as simple as being kinder to yourself, moving your body more, or finally speaking your truth.

Whatever it is, run toward it, not away from it.
That’s where your freedom is.

With love and courage,
Essence 🤎

P.S.

I’ll tell you a little more about the school and what to expect in my next email.