Laying next to someone & still feeling lonely...

I know this feeling all too well

I was lying on the couch with my head on my partner’s shoulder while the TV played in the background… and even though he was right beside me, I could feel this little ache of loneliness and me wanting him to pull me closer and just hold me.

However he was going through something really heavy in his own life.

And I could also feel he just did not have the emotional capacity in that moment to fully give to me.

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So instead of trying to pull it out of him, or go into my childhood rejection story...

I just leaned my head on his shoulder, wrapped my arm around his arm, closed my eyes, and let my heart open.

And I remember just lying there smiling because I could actually feel my own love filling me up.

It felt like my body was overflowing with love from within myself, rather than desperately needing someone else to give it to me first.

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Honestly, I felt so proud of myself in that moment.
Proud that all of the self-love work that I’ve done over the years showed up in that moment.

And proud that I was full enough inside myself to not make him responsible for filling me emotionally while he was struggling.

I was even able to visualize some of my love pouring into him.

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And that moment has stayed with me because so many women have never been taught how to love themselves in that way.

So they keep reaching outside themselves for someone else to finally make them feel chosen, full, worthy, loved, enough.

They overanalyze texts.
Notice when somebody’s energy shifts.
Feel sick waiting for a reply.
Need reassurance just to feel okay again.
Start feeling unwanted if somebody gets quiet, distracted, stressed, or emotionally unavailable for a moment.

They keep trying to pull love, attention, validation, safety, closeness out of other people because they do not know how to fully give those things to themselves yet.

And even when somebody really does love them… it still never fully feels like enough for long.

And then they still end up feeling empty.

Helping women break that cycle is a huge part of the work that I do.

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I help women come home to themselves and build such a deep relationship with themselves that they stop feeling starved for love all the time.

And help them feel safe enough in themselves that love stops feeling like something they constantly have to chase, earn, pull from people, or beg for.

Because when a woman is deeply connected to herself, she still loves people deeply.

But she is no longer abandoning herself, trying to get love back.
If you are craving this kind of relationship with yourself,

Reply with the word Home.

I’ll send you the details for my free Feminine Blueprint Session, and we can talk about what it would look like for you to come back home to yourself, too.

Or book the call (here).

Much love,

Essence