I almost stayed in bed all day today
A real life example of what it looks like to actually listen to yourself.
I wanted to share something with you because I think this is such a real example of the difference between living in your head versus being connected to your body.
So this morning I woke up in a complete funk.
I did not sleep well at all because I watched a show on Netflix called Nemesis before bed and my mind was going all night long.
Thinking about the characters.
Thinking about how to help people get away. Thinking about how sad it was that his son was getting pulled into gang life.
My brain does that sometimes, which is why I try to be really careful about what I watch.
So when I woke up this morning, I just felt heavy.
Low energy.
Melancholy.
Kind of emotionally flat.
And immediately my mind started talking.
“Well, you don’t have a client session until 3.”
“You barely slept.”
“You might as well just stay in bed all day.”
“We can just watch another Netflix show.”
Just that whole everything sucks kind of energy.
And for a second, I almost went with it.
But then underneath all those thoughts, I could feel something else.
I could feel my body quietly saying:
“But I don’t want this.”
Like my emotional body did not want to stay in that heaviness all day.
And the difference is… I actually listened.
I didn’t just automatically believe the first thoughts that showed up in my head this morning.
I got up.
Put my shoes on.
Went on my walk.
And now I feel so much better.
I’m happy I got up.
I’m happy I shifted my energy.
And I think this is important because so many people think the first emotion or thought they wake up with is automatically the truth.
Like:
“This is how I feel, so this is who I am today.”
And that is not always true.
Sometimes your mind is just pulling from exhaustion, fear, hormones, overstimulation, old emotions, what you watched before bed, what you ate, stress, all kinds of things.
That does not mean you have to fully hand your day over to it.
A lot of times we actually do have the ability to shift our energy.
Not by forcing ourselves and pretending we feel amazing when we don’t.
But by listening deeper.
Because my body this morning did not want to stay stuck in melancholy.
It wanted movement.
Fresh air.
Sunlight.
And I’m really glad I listened.
What is your body craving today?
Hit reply and let me know.
Much love,
Essence