Heartbreak as a Gateway: A Journey to Self-Healing-Part 2
If you read Part 1, you know about the heartbreak that cracked me open.
That wasn’t the only heartbreak.
There were years of them.
Years of me choosing people who wouldn’t choose me back.
And at some point, I had to be honest with myself.
If I was the one always left hurting… maybe I was also the one who needed healing.
So I asked God for help.
Not for a man. Not even for clarity.
Just for help.
And something in me shifted.
That was the moment I became a seeker.
When the Soul Remembers
I dove into spiritual books.
I scribbled in journals and learned about the Law of Attraction.
I started sitting with my feelings instead of running from them.
I began looking at the life I had created and asking:
Who did I become while trying so hard to be loved?
One night, I went to a spiritual Meetup group and a woman looked straight at me and said,
“You’re supposed to be a Radical Forgiveness Coach.”
Chills.
I bought the book that night.
And when I read the author’s mission statement, something in my soul just clicked.
It felt like coming home.
The Sacred Shift
I didn’t think I was someone who needed healing but I had all the signs of someone carrying deep, hidden pain:
Crying without knowing why.
Drinking too much.
Unhealthy relationships.
Emotional shutdown.
Feeling like I didn’t belong, not even in my own body.
The book helped me see what I had never admitted:
I had abandonment wounds.
My father didn’t raise me.
I pretended I didn’t care, but the truth is… my inner child was deeply hurt.
And I had been carrying that wound everywhere I went… into every relationship, every heartbreak, every place where I tried to be chosen.
Choosing Myself
With that realization, I chose to make a new kind of commitment.
Not to a man.
But to me.
I stopped dating.
I chose celibacy.
I started penciling in healing on my calendar like it was sacred.
Because it was sacred.
I was no longer trying to become someone worth loving.
I was learning to love myself, just because.
And from that place…
Everything changed.
I attracted real love.
I discovered my true purpose.
I found a deep sense of calm and belonging within myself.
It all came after I chose me.
But the journey didn’t stop there.
The healing work I committed to deepened, guiding me to powerful tools and teachings that transformed not only my relationship with myself, but also how I show up to the world.
That’s where Post 3 begins, the practices and the sacred path that led me to fully embody a new version of myself and step into my purpose as a guide for others.
Sacred Reflection
Feel free to pause here. These reflection questions are just an invitation to connect with what’s true for you.
What moment, experience, or message felt like a turning point in your life?
In what ways have you ignored or overridden your own needs in relationships?
If you were to commit to yourself more deeply, what might that look like in this season?
Ready to Rise? It’s time to stand in your power and claim who you are! Join me for an energy practice in Part 3. There, you’ll receive one of my earliest foundational practices for mastering your energy and anchoring into self.